Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Why I'm a Failure

I totally and completely failed over the past few months. One thing you may have noticed is that I haven't been posting much. I've been completely overwhelmed with everything.

The following is a list of things that I've failed doing:

1. I failed to blog. I've been meaning to do this, but I just haven't had time.

2. I failed to finish my story for the Chapter Book Challenge.

3. I failed to write my March story for the 12x12.

4. I'm way behind in critiquing the April stories from my critique group.

5. I haven't updated my website in forever.

6. All of my personal projects are at a stand still right now.

The list could go on forever, but these are the main problems.

Failure is the first way I tend to look at things when I don't get to complete all the tasks I want to get done. There are reasons I haven't been able to do the above tasks. I'm still experiencing pain/fatigue/sleeplessness from my car accident. My whole family has been sick for over a month. I have an illustration job. I have two kids, one of those kids are under 2 years old (and is refusing naps). I have family and friends I spend time with. I also have to do the laundry and dishes once in a while.

Often I feel like the above things are excuses instead of legitimate reasons for not getting things done. They would be excuses if I was letting them take over my life and not getting anything done. It's important to look at the positives when then negatives seem to outweigh the positives in your life. I don't do this enough, so I'm going to do it now.

Here is the list of things I've accomplished over the last few months:

1. I worked on Smart Dummies (with the Smart Dummies Planning Group) and we came up with some good leads for the event. Also some great ideas to make the event better.

2. I got over 10,000 words written in March for a new story thanks to the Chapter Book Challenge.

3. I wrote a new story in both January and Febuary for the 12x12 and April is not yet over!

4. I feel like I gave the best feedback I could for my critique group January-March. I will be able to do the critiques for April -- just late.

5. I am working on an illustration commission. I feel like I'm not over the biggest hurdle for this and will be able to finish up soon.

6. I have tons of ideas thanks to Storystorm. I may not have times to work on those ideas, but they are written down and will be stored for later.

7. I have a wonderful family. My house isn't clean, but no one died. Having kids that live is relatively important.

Think about all the things you did since the beginning of the year. How many failures did you have? What was the reasons behind those failures? Write down the things you accomplished and focus on those. Life will get in the way, but you can still get things done.

I had an art teacher who use to say that with art you are always getting better even when you aren't creating. If you stopped creating art for many years you still would be better than you were when you stopped because you bring all your experiences into your work. The same goes for writing. If you can't work, then absorb as much of the world as possible. You can use it later in your craft!